Elena Ferrante, from Those Who Leave and Those Who Stay (translated from the Italian by Ann Goldstein)
[Text ID: Ever since I was a child I had constructed for myself a perfect self-repressive mechanism. Not one of my true desires had ever prevailed, I had always found a way of channeling every yearning. Now enough, I said to myself, let it all explode, me first of all.]
Sad eyes.
Based in a scene of “On the beach at night alone” (Bamui haebyun-eoseo honja) directed by Hong Sang-soo.